somewhere
the laughter has subsided,
the barbs removed
from the hooks
and the voices, quietened,
while the spoken word,
is sweeter
and the love,
ongoing and genuine –
somewhere,
though not here
and, not today
"I am a long time schizophrenic on continuing medication (Olanzapine, low dose 2.5mg) recently reduced but anyone who is diagnosed should know; it is for life. That's the poignancy. Life! And no matter how you anticipate the future, nothing changes. The world though, would have us, 'chase wellness'. And that is the context for my piece. I was diagnosed and hospitalised several times from 1980 and my reduced medication really says nothing about my condition. And so, I arise each morning (now retired) thinking only of now; today. Every now and again I feel as I did when I wrote "another mental health day". "So it goes", wrote Kurt Vonnegut (also a schizophrenic)"